This morning every emotion that i could posisbly feel simultaneously woke me up. I wish we could press the 'stop' button on our feelings. No matter how ostensibly happy we are, we all wake up with that little void thats been created by an unanswered question, an undiscovered truth or a painful lie that has been told. We're all left with voids and a quenching that only truth can satisfy. This morning the truth i searched for was why he didn't want to be with me if i was so 'amazing'.
That's a truth i've been seeking for a little while now, what makes you reject something amazing? I didnt discover that the answer to that question, i didnt find that truth this morning, but i discovered another as someone called me and offered me a ride to work. I discovered that somone is thinking of me. As i got to work and someone offered me their seat i discovered that someone could sacrifice for me no matter how little. As i sat down at my desk and recieved an encouraging text from a young man i discovered that someone wants my day to go well. This morning when a young man told me he just realized he missed me, i discovered that my presence is relevant in someones life. The truth that i have discovered today is that i may not have the answer to why he doesnt want to be with me, but this mornings occurences have revealed alternative truths; I am relevant, desirable, valued, respectable, and i am strong. I am strong enough not to allow rejection to obliterate every other truth i have discovered. I will not allow the truth i do not know to define me, but the truth that i do know.
That's a truth i've been seeking for a little while now, what makes you reject something amazing? I didnt discover that the answer to that question, i didnt find that truth this morning, but i discovered another as someone called me and offered me a ride to work. I discovered that somone is thinking of me. As i got to work and someone offered me their seat i discovered that someone could sacrifice for me no matter how little. As i sat down at my desk and recieved an encouraging text from a young man i discovered that someone wants my day to go well. This morning when a young man told me he just realized he missed me, i discovered that my presence is relevant in someones life. The truth that i have discovered today is that i may not have the answer to why he doesnt want to be with me, but this mornings occurences have revealed alternative truths; I am relevant, desirable, valued, respectable, and i am strong. I am strong enough not to allow rejection to obliterate every other truth i have discovered. I will not allow the truth i do not know to define me, but the truth that i do know.
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